Today I did.
And felt all emotions running through me, rushing my blood, and accelerating my heart. I felt warm as if I was in your arms, I felt connected as if we were on your backyard, looking at the stars, despite the thousands of miles that apart us from each other.
I still dream of the day we’ll meet, and finally have a chance to walk on Berlin, or London, or anywhere on this whole world. I remember our bucket list, our plans of when we get together, all the philosophical chats and those many hours we could talk about our daily life just like every day could bring so many things to say and see.
There’s so much I wanna say. There is so many things I wanted to do. But life got to make its own decisions on the way.
You had many dreams by that time! And looking now that you reached many of them makes me very happy. At that time, when our conversation started during 2, 3 hours, I was wanting to leave behind all I had just to be with you. This made me think on many things, but particularly that I could interfere negatively to your life in the sequence of it. I could be a barrier between you and your dreams. I could make you not have those amazing moments you had on the exchange to another country, or all the great experiences the university brought you.
So I decided to walk away, little by little.
Letting you go, spreading your wings and flying as high as I always knew you
could. Just like our parents do when we are learning how to ride a bicycle,
until we start riding it on our own. It was one of the hardest decisions I’ve
ever made in life, but now I realize it was the right thing to do, because you
are incredibly happy and well stablished in all sections of your life.
You got to go to the places you wanted, you
finished studies, you found love. Each and every milestone you conquered had me
on my feet, applauding and cheering for you.
I just want to say that I still love you, and
always will. I’ll forever be cheering for you, wanting all the best things to
happen for you, wishing on my prayers that you may get all the things you need
to live the experiences you’ll face in future, the good and bad ones, and that
you get the strength and willpower to surpass all the walls and difficulties
that life may present you on the way. And, as you once told me, “remember of
your strength and don’t let life put you down”.
Sorry for taking this long to open this all up
for you, but now seems like the right time. Sorry for taking the decision to
walk away in a selfish manner.
Thank you SO MUCH for being part of my life.
Without you, I would never be the person I am today.
Happy life for us!
